Uncertain Unsure

Truly I must confess the waves with its to fro dance.
The wind hither thither tango has more definition than I

I use to rooted like the iroko
Unyielding as the mountains
Confidently flowing as the rivers
Consistent like sunrise

Who will plant me ?
Establish my course
Chart my paths
Bring back stability.

Find me for I am lost



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So WRONG So WRIGHT

Really "am confused" is an understatement
But I have no one to blame for this dilemma but myself
Cause so many "if I hadn't" won't change what's done
Now not even one of the options is right or perfect
Each is flawed full of pitfalls.

Life is so disappointing right now
Ain't no ones fault but mine
Too many regrets in the past
Much more scary the future
Wrong turns ; drifts and twists
Is there hope for me yet

Am not my own fan believe me
I know me too well
Those that believe, amaze me
Am my own number one critic
I won't even sell
Those that praise are skeptic

You need to truly know me to understand



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We get what WE Deserve

Yesterday, the bomb blasted at the UN building in abuja.
Killed many wounded scores.
Today at the site after inspection;
Goodluck Jonathan said
"Many countries have experienced terrorist attacks maybe this is Nigeria's share"
What a lackadaisical and defeatist statement!
The irresponsible attitude of our leaders to the people's plight is inexcusable.
For all he cares Nigerians can die in their thousands.
As far as they can continue their looting and misgovernance
I don't blame Goodluck really; I blame the millions who voted for foolish sentiments and complete ignorance.
I blame the empty heads who stood behind a man with no results in the past and no purpose for the future.
Blinding themselves with vain hope in LUCK
So may Luck put food on your table, protect you & yours; give you a better tomorrow.
Don't grumble Nigerians. You only got the leaders you deserve.



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Miracles can still happen

Today I saw a wonder up the web
One long slender limb carrying the nymph like beauty.
The way she danced made the one with two strong ample green with envy
Balanced, poised, elegant Really pretty
Lord for every time we don't appreciate what we possess, have mercy on us.
Give us a heart of gratitude to maximize all that you blessed us with.
Bringing you glory all our days
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How do I love you?

Tod@y he @sked me!
I re@lly wonder wh@t is on his mind
Truly, I don't know wh@t to s@y.
So I turned spiritu@l
Love me for me.
Honour me, V@lue me like @ priceless tre4sure
Protect, te@ch me.
Pl@y with me.
Incre@se my worth. Celebr@te me.
I could not s@y this to you.
So I turned Spiritu@l
Why c@nt I spe@k my mind.
Who is deceiving who?

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Angst

Today started all bright and perfect.
Tonight its a dark and stormy.

Am so mad!
Why does my heart pick the worst of them.
Why can't she see that he is no good.
Like the polluted earth of the niger delta
Oil and earth can bring no pure life.

The way of a man and a maid no one can understand.
How can I hate so much someone I have never met.
The tangle of souls; so complex and simply complicated.

Tonight am very angry.
Livid in my pain. I have my own problems- must I needs carry hers as well?
My own wisdom did not save me. How will it rescue her.
This soul ties of passion and fruit; who can untie
He has the wife of his choosing yet he hangs on to the mother of his ada.
Let her go, so she may be free to fly and find her own mate.

He is evil am sure. No good plan for her he has.
Selfish and devious. What do I do to free the one I love from the web of deceit and abuse.

I need help.


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Stand Alone

My memories are short
Not too many details.
More like the summary summarisation of summaries!!
Really don't be surprised the little I remember.
Am amazed that its even that much.
I remember dark sleepless night.
Of wandering around the hostel compound
Peeping through room 1 window hearing them all talk
Seeing her throw out my things from the cupboard.
Why really did I stay out that night??
Was it fear of standing alone and having no one on my side?
Was it anger, that I will do a battle I most definitely will not win?
Was it just the fact that am of few words.
Knowing I had no friend, supporter, guide or help kept me out.
It is no good to stand Alone



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Am bored

My head is blank, no particular thought or idea there right now.
Idle chatter is just what I need at this time.
Really but no one to gist with
In a long time, my own company bores me.
I like my own company a lot!
So why this sudden aloneness??
Its all cause my head is blank.
Alone times are great times.
Time to reflect and consider
Time to daydream and project;
Time to scrutinize and analyze.
But why is this time alone any different?
Maybe cause I do not want to analyse.
Well many things require analyses that could actually brood an ache!
I don't want to daydream; the hunger for realization has drained them of their euphoria
Reflections raises too many questions for which I have poor answers.
Cause the only reason am bored is cause my mind is blank!!!
Sleep where art thou???? ;)

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Faith Works

There is no excuse whatsoever for laziness.
The idle hands gets no harvest.
When you work to till and tend; to sow and shield.
Then you believe;
Harvest will come.

The hands are created to work, so the mouth can eat.
Use your hands to deliver yourself from hunger.
Faith Works
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Pain

To be in a crowd yet so all alone
To dwell in a mansion, without a roof
To work like an elephant, without even the ants table
To live yet be in pain

No friend. To comfort
Just jeering foes
No respite from the deluge
Just piercing groaning

Did you hear about my loss?
Did you feel my wounds?
Can you see my misery?
Or smell the stench of death!

The loneliness of the heart,
The confusion of the mind,
The pangs of the body;
The Pain that burns within.
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Come, Sit With Me

Tonight the sky is dark and cloudy
No stars twinkle above
No gay songs of children beside the night fire
Only long slinking shadows of long faced fathers
Sit with me

The cricket sings the dirge with the mating frogs
To the signs and groans of the loser
Cussing sympathizers give the solo
Tears no longer flow, cause the rivers are dry
Sit with me

Tonight words have no meaning
But to pierce like freshly shot arrows on an open wound
Tonight mirth brings no pleasure
But is crushing of the bones already broken
Sit with me
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Sex and Roses

I thought you didn't think much of me.
Really i was sure you did not know me
Many times i called out
Not even a wink or a flicker of recognition

The deceit of passion,
You did not even see me.
No light just the wonder of touch, taste and awesome feeling
The sound, the sweat....so very satisfying

The lights come on,
The shades are drawn
Reality dawns
You do not know ME.

True Or False

True or False
I must confess there is more to life and living than what your eyes see.
Years go racing by a culmination of days wasted.
True or false not all who live truly live and not all who die stay dead.

The living most times can be as dead.
Yet the dead refuse to die.
True or false
There is more to life than what our eyes can see.